The Unexpected Joy Of Being Content And Happy

The Unexpected Joy Of Being Content And Happy

It’s currently 3.22am as I am writing this and I am sat wide awake wondering what to do with myself. I’ve spent the first half of January working hard at University work and remembered I was going to sit and talk about it a little bit on here.

Since leaving school ten years ago this year, I have attempted A Levels, BTECs and started two degrees which I thought were my thing but really weren’t. I have had three years dealing with anxiety before deciding to go back to education as a 25yr old. I am the oldest in my class now but I tell you something, Newcastle College has been life changing for me. I was a nervous wreck on that first day back in September walking into the unknown but I have not looked back since. Even through the stressful times, it is still enjoyable.

For those of you who don’t know, I am studying Fashion & Retail Enterprise as a Foundation Degree. It has given me the opportunity to go to exhibitions that I love and make friends that are completely amazing not only in college but outside of college too. It has gave me something to look forward to instead of fearing my future as well as some sort of routine in my life. I made the conscious decision to study a part time Level 2 Photography course too which has been thoroughly enjoyable. I can’t actually believe that I have got a qualification in something that I’ve self-taught myself since I was 15 as well as getting through half way of my first year.

The past couple of months I have grown confident using Adobe software, learnt how to create a range plan, look at trends and created a collaboration proposal with Urban Outfitters and Sighh. I’m currently in the process of coming up with my own trend and moving onto a Level 3 in Photography next month which I am super excited for. Don’t get me wrong, I am still slightly nervous about my future career but I am more excited to see where it is going to lead and who knows I might go all business entrepreneur and start my own fashion line, something I would love to do. Anyway, enough of the boring bits…

Next week I’m off to see The 1975 with one of my best friends and I can’t wait! I’ve waited over two years to see them again so I can’t wait to sing along to all there songs again. Has anyone else listened to their new album? It’s been on repeat since release date for me.

Can you believe that January is nearly over? February is looking pretty busy for me already which I am looking forward to. I’ve got London Fashion Week Festival to look forward to, plenty of days out with Alice, Beca and Polly to take photos and chat. Unless there is some shock date night happening, I am on my own for Valentine’s this year which I am surprisingly okay with. I’ve planned myself a little pamper night in my bullet journal with one of the new bath bombs from Lush. It’s the Peachy bath bomb which smells amazing and so up lifting!  Speaking of Lush, did anyone else see the naked movement to celebrate the zero waste products at the Manchester store. Unfortunately I wasn’t there at the time but I caught it on social media and it’s so powerful.

I finished Catherine Gray’s The Unexpected Joy of Being Single the other day amongst busy deadlines. It was such a good book! I picked it up after Emma and I broke up in December in the hope to cheer myself up. I’m the type of person who can fall in love super quickly and I want everything with someone very quickly into a relationship. I don’t think it is a bad thing but I also think that it can be very unhealthy to act like that. Did you know that most young people don’t find the one they want to settle down with until their late 20s? That immediately made me feel better. I think as a society we are forced to fall the ‘plan’, you know the one where you have to find love early and buy a house, get engaged and then have children but guys it is the 21st century. It is okay to be on your own but it is also okay to have a date planned with someone different every week if you fancy. People these days can be so judgemental but the only person who is going to know how you feel about a situation is yourself and you should listen to you. You do you!

I should probably try and get some sleep now either that all I will probably sit and do my bullet journal pages. I’ve found it so super helpful. I sit down for a couple of hours with no distractions to keep up to date with it. It’s relaxing and calming.

Have you been up too much lately? What’s one good thing that has happened this month?

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2019.

2019.

It’s January 2nd 2019. The start of a new year and at first, I thought about not doing one of these kind of posts but after looking back at last years which you can read here and wasn’t so terrible after all; I think it is semi-important to reward yourself with the things that you have actually achieved in a year. Similarly, to last year, I am still not in the best frame of mind mentally although last year was much worse and this year I have finally found help.

I’ve spent the past couple of days hiding away from the world to get myself mentally prepared to what 2019 has to bring. I’m currently waiting for the reunion episode of the Inbetweeners with a hot chocolate and Bailey’s cause why not?! It’s like a little reward to myself for completing a nearly 5hr cross country journey without feeling anxious. So, let’s have a bit of a reflect…

Last year I set myself a couple of goals: eat healthier, push myself out of my comfort zone and start a YouTube channel, read at least one book per month, meet new friends and feel more confident in front of the camera when it comes to taking outfit photos.

Let’s get the negative stuff out of the way: eating healthier has failed but tonight I am heading to Slimming World in the hope to lose a stone before that holiday I’ve booked in May which I have promised myself for the past four years. I’ve not started that YouTube channel yet, but I have something planned for 2019 so just make sure you are prepared for that.

Although I haven’t done the YouTube thing, I have spent the past couple of months deciding what to do with my blog and where I want it to go so prepare yourselves for some new content.

I also pushed myself out of my comfort zone but not in the way I wanted to. I started 2018 off in Shrewsbury which is why I wanted to make new friends and not long after I moved home. I made some amazing friends before I left which I still talk to regularly nowadays as well as that I also have my University girls that are great for advice, support and a lot of laughs making stressful deadlines a bit less dull. I volunteered as an NCS Support Worker for two weeks of the Summer which was challenging but I felt as though I achieved something, and I also went back to education to study something that I am really enjoying.

There was a time where Alice and I were taking many outfit photos more or less on a weekly basis and I would love to do that again especially because I am so passionate about fashion at the moment, it’s all I like talking about these days. I want to experiment with my photography and get a little bit more creative with the images that I am taking so any North East bloggers out there who are needing outfit photos, holla at me!

Anyway, here’s a list of some more good things about 2018: I have learnt to enjoy reading, I have started doing things for myself and concentrate on taking time out for me, the people I have around me at the moment are great, I have saved £36.61 which I know isn’t much but it’s a start.

Okay, maybe 2018 wasn’t so hopeless after all.

My one and only goal for this year is to be a lot more content with my life than I am currently. I have set myself some little goals that I have written down in my bullet journal, but I don’t want to share them until I have completed them or perhaps this time next year. This year is the one where things are going to be different and I am going to start doing things that I want to do. I’ve even found a way to save a bit of money that seems quite realistic. I’ll be sure to let you know how I get on.

Thank you to everyone who has stuck around these past few months. I know I have been a rather bad blogger recently, but this is only my hobby and sometimes I have to remember that. I don’t get paid for a lot of the content that I publish on this little corner of the internet and it is not my full-time job. I hope you stick around for 2019 because this gal is going to be pumping up her social media game because I enjoy this so much and I want to give the internet back something that it gives to me and that is happiness and friendship. Say goodbye to all that edited content cause that can be found on the full-time bloggers websites and magazines and prepare yourselves for better and more journal style posts cause that’s what I like.

Are you excited for 2019? What are your goals?

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